Labels: pics
Does anyone ever pay attention to anyone else anymore? Really? Do people even care at all? Or is it we are so busy working our asses off, that we don't see that right in front of us lies so many opportunities, that we are simply blinded by them? Take 10 seconds to name your neighbor, first and last name....do you know their first and last name? I fucking don't. I'm not ashamed of this fact, and neither should you, however you should make a conscious effort to try and learn people in your neighborhood...you never know when that will save your ass. Anyway, going back on your life in general and reflecting on your mistakes is not a good way to go about life. It's totally fucking me up. To the extreme. It's making me more depressed than if I didn't have any thought at all. Maybe that's how most people get through life...not thinking. I don't really know what to do at this point, but I guess I can try.... Anyway, next post in a few minutes will be a picture post. YAY.
Labels: attn
*guitar solo*
*guitar solo*
Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Intoleranceeeeee, eating us whole
Leaving our face in the sand,
Left for dead,
Your face is so graceful,
Originally so decorative,
Untold fortunes await underneath,
Blanket the stars and milky way sky,
Enough! Let us erupt from our rocky prison,
Although it seems like the end,
Hear us cry, shooting flares into the sky
Elongate your neck, so we can stand a chance
Relish in my pain, lick up our sorrow to gain strength
O! God! The aftermath is charming
To a forward thinking mind
Onward! Onward!
Never look back to the death we may face,
Ignore the warning signs from the heavens
Get away from the light, the passing of an evening's slight
Hurray! We are saved by yet a tragic disposition
To the fallen, we must be thankful....
Labels: Willyoubeaherotonight
Like I give a fuck, Like I give a shit about that shit.
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BEEEEEEEEEEOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVEEEEHOOOOOOOOOOO!
Uh what?
Labels: chkchkchk
So, I was listening to Her Space Holiday recently....and then it struck me. I need a love that would look and sound like a movie. Beeooobooop. No but seriously, I remembered why I wanted to get into music in the first place. I need to buckle down and write an album. I just wish I could collect my thoughts instead of having random notes all over the place with lyrics. It kinda sucks doing it solo, but I'll find a way to carry on. Either way, I need to figure out how I can convey my message...I want to bring music to the masses...Depeche Mode style. Actually I want it to be electronic in every sense of the word, but I want to be able to play live....I don't know..I guess I should start by writing the lyrics.........
HELP WANTED
Labels: musicianship
So I'm going through my cd's seeing what I can trade off to Lala.com and I'm finding stuff I haven't heard in forever. It is kinda wierd actually...Some of these bands are what inspired me to try my hand in musicianship in the first place. Now I'm a miserable shell of a man, because simply every single musical project I've tried has failed miserably. I don't want to give up my passion, but I may not have any choice. Maybe I need new surroundings? Maybe I need better inspiration? What can I do to be successful? Is my voice not loud enough? What the hell can I do??? Do I need to surround myself around new people? The last time I did that I felt pretty lame. I don't know...I have problems with meeting new people...I always feel like I have to impress them or something. Like my personality isn't good enough by itself. "and all my lack of skill...I blame on him.." Damn, I need to listen to that Early November album again. I found a lot of parallels between his life and mine...maybe not as exact, but it's pretty damn close. I don't feel whole at all. I feel like I was shattered into 200 pieces and scattered all over the world a long time ago...and now I'm on a never ending quest to put those pieces back together. I have no clue why I'm writing all of this, no one reads this journal, and most certainly no one would take the time to read this wall of text. One thing I've learned over the years, is no one cares about anybody else's problems but their own. People are inherently selfish, and it's pretty sad. I would do anything for anyone, but it's rare that I get that same privledge....what do I need to do? I think I need to go to bed.
Labels: bleh
Okay, so if you scroll to the bottom, you can see my want/have list for lala.com. if you don't know what Lala.com is....well go to it and find out. It's pretty freaking awesome if you ask me. In under a week I've traded 9 cds. I got rid of some stuff that I don't listen to, to get stuff I want...sure it costs 1.75 per each cd that you receive...but that's chump change compared to what you would pay for it at a used store or even retail...so check it out.
Labels: lala
I'm not sure what I should do anymore. I don't know what my future holds, I don't know what I can do I dont know anything. I'm lost in a sea of uncertainty. If anyone has a suggestion or kind word, it's appreciated.
<3Justin
So I've decided to quit the whole music thing. I feel that there is no point anymore. I mean, there's all these shitty bands who get signed left and right, and I'm sure they work hard or whatever, but come on. Sure there's an audience for everything, but I mean even people have their limits I suppose. So this is the official death of all my projects past and future. If for some unholy reason someone wants to start a band with me, then so be it. Until then, I'm going to put my effort into becoming a game programmer/designer. I am however working on a script for a movie. The secret name for it is "JESUS" and it will be a comedy. If you know me, you'll know I'm pretty offensive, which this movie will be and more. However, I am going to portray Jesus correctly. Anywho, that's the update, I had a fun day on Friday, and a shitty one on Saturday but whatever. Anyway, enjoy the rest of your weekend gang, and if you want to add me to your Wii friends list, just hit me up on AIM. I'll give you the info.
AIM: xkillerromancesx